Understanding you.

I've noticed that you are always looking for someone to fully understand you. To be able to pick up every single subtle hint you drop, to be able to understand your multiple personalities and the chaos in your head. YOU don't even understand you. 28 personalities and counting. You change your mind with each switch, anything you say will change in 10 minutes, you love us one second and hate us the next. We are the closest thing you have to someone who understands you. We try more than anyone else ever will to understand you. You get mad when we get mad, but what you have to understand from us is that between the two of us we don't change our minds about you. We stay here, loyal and ready to catch you if ever you should fall. You get mad when we talk about you, when we talk about you, we are trying to calm down because of something that happened or we are trying to gather more information so we can make sure to bring everything up to you when we all have time to talk. We don't sit there and talk about you in a negative sense[at least we don't mean it to be negative] we are just trying to get our immediate feelings out so that they don't build up. And it's not behind your back because a) we know you're listening and b) we tell you it later anyway. The tension we are feeling is mostly because I feel as if you are still hiding things. Or, one of you is. Also, the tension is building up because your right. You haven't chosen yet and you leaving will hurt us. Your not the only one who builds a wall when you feel the possibility of injury to your heart. My wall is easier to break down because I refuse to fully put one up against people I love but that's just another one of our differences. One thing you should remember is that we love you. You should remember that it's supposed to be us and that Tom/James is evil. Harry and I have a harder time with this whole situation because we actually know that you have Tom and us. If Tom knew, it wouldn't be so easy for you to fall for him. He wouldn't be taking you out to expensive dinners or telling you that he loves you and would do anything to be with you or showing you a good time. He'd be killing the one person you loved and forcing you to be by his side just like he did oh so long ago. I think Harry and I react a bit better. How can you expect us to not get a little upset and anxious for the next year and 7 months to be over? If we weren't jealous, we wouldn't love you. We wouldn't care what you did with who, we wouldn't care if you flirted with every guy you see, and we wouldn't care if you left. But we do care. As much as anyone will ever care. I love you. <3